With age comes wisdom, right? I like to think, as I get a little older, I get a little wiser.
Rephrase that: As my kids grow older, I get a little wiser. There’s something about raising kids, being a mom, that makes you more aware to the things that matter most in this life. Makes you more aware of your values and the values you hope to instill in your children. And not only that, but as a coach and business owner as well, I often think about the influence I hope to have on my athletes, my members, my community. For me, lately, I’ve been more inspired—and challenged—than ever to ask myself:
What is my purpose? What am I really living for?
And the answer did not come over night, but it becomes more clear everyday.
I am here to give my God, my Creator, glory and honor in all I do.
Whatever your spiritual journey or beliefs may be, for me, my identity as free and loved in Christ, and my personal relationship with God, is something that is molding and shaping me into the influence I aspire to be. I was raised in a God-centered home in West Texas like many Southerners are. Catholic heritage. ‘Grace’ was said before all major family gathered dinners, and “The Lords Prayer” before bed. My brothers, sister and I went to private school K – 9th grade. We had religion class weekly and Mass once a month. We knew the Christmas story by heart about how baby Jesus was born in a manger, but little else was said about the impact of my inbred spiritual values over my life. However, there was something about my spiritual values that stuck with me as I grew older.
I remember playing basketball in college at Angelo State University and fighting through some brutal conditioning. Static air squats in particular (holding an air-squat for what seemed hours on end) stick out to me. In order to “get through it”, I’d repeat, Philippians 4:13 in my head: “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” How true is that?! Not just for air squats and working out, but life in general? As my 20’s ensued, my spiritual roots were definitely part of my values—and my beliefs—but not necessarily something I thought about on a daily basis. I would have pockets where I would turn to my GOD and ask for his help, but now I seek his strength and am more aware of the Holy Spirit on a more consistent daily basis and open the conversation up as a relationship rather then when I need something.
Lately, my heart and eyes have been opened, that for me, personally, I desire to live more according to God’s will for my life—and not my own. Ultimately, I want to make myself available for God to use me—however he best sees fit with his plans—whether I am speaking to a room full of women about goal setting; coaching up 55 CrossFitters at a CrossFit Strongman seminar; instructing athletes in class how to perform the clean and jerk; being an encourager for my husband’s career in music; or teaching my kids life lessons such as being a friend to others or how to withstand peer pressure. It is so incredibly easy to get caught up in the day-to-day “to-dos” and values of this world:
“Me first.” The number of Facebook messages or Twitter followers you have. Driving a cool car. Designer jeans. Weighing X-amount of pounds. Being the best CrossFit athlete. Being a “supermom”—the classroom mom, the playground duty mom, the Girl Scout troop leader, etc. Eating a perfect diet. Always looking for the “next thing”—not living in the present moment.
While none of these are necessarily bad, it is when the rat-race of this world or the “keeping up with the Joneses” becomes front and center, that life’s priorities get a little misconstrued. My spiritual journey is a daily, ongoing commitment that I am finding, when I make it front and center (i.e. Taking time for prayer, filling my mind with uplifting music and inspirational reads, putting others before myself, etc.)—That I truly find my purpose.
Recently, I ran into a former client of mine that I used to train when I worked my first job as a personal trainer at Busby’s back in my 20’s. He came up to me, and we began to catch up—he told me that he was still working out and enjoying life in Austin. He then proceeded to tell me that shortly after I had ceased training him when I left to begin CrossFit Central, he had started going to church. “I remember you used to talk about God and going to church every now and then—and I saw something different in you. After we stopped training, I started going to church—and now it’s a big part of my life,” he said.
Man. I was blown away! You truly NEVER KNOW what influence you may have on others. I do not seek to be a Bible beater, nor do I preach standing on a pedestal. Rather, all I aspire to do is live in the same way that Christ lived—others’ centered.
This world, my business, my life, is not all about me. It’s all about Him—and above all else, I know without a doubt, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. (Philippians 4:13)